I realize it's been a few months since my last entry. The lack of internet service at home will do that.
Lots has happened! My divorce is almost final...and let me just say.......Thank goodness for that! Not to say my ex-husband and I ended it on bad terms or anything, but it was just time to move on.
As for me...I've been living in my own apartment, working as much as possible and trying to get this life of mine together.
I've never lived on my own before...not really at least. Always had a roommate or a man living with me, so this experience has been amazing! It's what I've always needed, but never had the chance to do. Life had other plans for me.
I am in love again. But....it's a different kind of love. As he is far away right now. Will be overseas shortly serving our country. Something that scares me to death...but I love this man so much. I have every confidence in him and I believe this time apart is great for both of us. It's allowing us to show each other and ourselves, just how much we really love and care about each other. It's brought us so much closer to each other, and I've experienced more love with him than I ever have before.
Yes, sure, we have great chemistry in person. We make each other laugh...we can talk to each other about anything...we make a great team and we share many interests.
This too, I've never experienced before. Actually being myself, and knowing who that is...and feeling comfortable with someone else. I'll spend the rest of my life with this man someday. We may even have more children. But for now...it's about seeing him through this deployment...and him getting back home safely.
I love you baby.
