Since I've written in this blog. Life has certainly changed quite a bit since January 9th, 2009. I don't even know where to begin with all of this...I'm still sorting it all out myself. Everyday seems like a whirlwind of change and possibility. Stresses and moments of pure joy. Lack of sleep and unbelievable energy.
I'll do my best to fill you in on everything. Bare with me....my pace may fluctuate!
Let's start with today...and work our way back and forth shall we....
I live in Mesa, AZ now. In apartments! So exciting for me, because I never had a place of my own before. (Always lived with another adult) A tiny step in life that I somehow managed to miss, that I finally got back to.
My husband Brian, and I, are getting a divorce. I'm sure we could both give you many reasons why and go on and on about how hard everything got, or how far we grew apart, but the fact of the matter is, we made it as far as we could go. Now it's time to take different paths. We'll remain friends and will continue to raise our children the best way we know how. Separation did wonders for our communication skills. We've both also matured from this experience. Will we get back together? No. Our lives have changed. We've changed. Or maybe it was just me. Either way, we're two different people now and things are fine the way they are.
The kids have done great during all of this, so far. Gavin may have acted out a little in the beginning, (when Brian and I were still 'workin out the kinks') but he's gotten much better. It's almost as if the kids can see and feel how much better this is, vs. how things were getting.
So here I am...28, 5 kids, about to be divorced twice, living in an apartment on my own, working in a restaurant as a serv(ant)er during the slowest season imaginable, trying to make ends meet, and trying to figure out how to go back to school AND find a 2nd job!
Let the good times roll!
